I was laying there naked, on a couch facing the window wide open, a bit earlier than the dawn, at the last moments of dark.
What makes the dark special is that everyone is sleeping throughout most of it. You being awake is special by itself.
Few cars run the roads. Few birds start their day. Loneliness at that moment is precious.
Mario comes and lays down next to me. Naked also, his body stuck to mine. Says nothing.
A moment. That moment. When you remember the darkness of Nina Simone’s darkest songs. Dark? Yes dark. And the most tender of all moments….
I could see the shadows of Mario’s curves. I could feel his skin rubbing to mine.
Dark? Yes, cause why not?!
When it’s that soft and gentle.
I could sense his warmth, listen slightly to the mix of our heartbeats.
The romance of that moment. Romance is a cheesy word compared to the sophistication of that moment’s simplicity.
Calm. Yes the calmest of moments, where you can still hear those cars from far away along to birds spreading their first melodies.
Do not say a thing, do not move…
Let us become part of that flow.
Darkness, calm, lights dimming in the mountains far away. Loneliness, how soft it is, when you are next to me.
Crying! How joyful is that crying… when I cry with you.
Mario. Your warmth. The silence. The dark. Your shadow.
My thoughts! When we’re in our nest, me and you, naked, away from people’s eyes, away from their thoughts, holding each others, because we can, we are entitled to, in a society that discriminates, that judges.
Your shoulder under my armpit, your head on my shoulder. I am to protect you, I am to love you. I am to defend you from wild animals, you have my oath.
So Shhhh….my love. People like us need no talking.
ShSh! you and you, and you there. My love is laying next to me, naked as he was created, as we were both created, as things are created. That is nature. Basic nature.
I am alone with him, as he is alone with me. While you are all sleeping.
And few cars are running the far away streets, and some birds are starting their singing.
While me and Mario are having a moment…